a book report, of sorts


lately, and once again, i have been ridiculously obsessed with the writings of Jean Genet. and although i don’t want to get into the habit of name-dropping too much around here, this is one of those times we shall succumb to passing along a bit of it, and why not?

 

I do not know what I felt at the moment, but today all I need do is summon up the vision of Stilitano for my distress to appear at once in the relationship of a cruel bird to its victim.

we’re all fiery phoenix wings

lets see:
there are things lost keys plastic cups carports & parking lots. lets get some fresh air, eh? who can believe it. empty lists & three to a pool table i ramble abt reverence & raretruths left holding heroines & barearms (yoU’ve got to be kidding!)

the brutalsky metaphor like cars across boulevards im a pleasure center & questions answered yr smiling strangers & the handjivegeneration believe it! no regrets right. moving on -

there was a bumper sticker i saw & tried to remember (its gone now - no surprise seriously, right?)how abtslot machine stereotypes& stigmatic halucinations - tell me everything Everything everything!! i see only smiles and bluesky outlines i need more here to work with this is painful like paradise like porcelin parables & please lets do something again &again

self-promotion (is a family value)

i know its been a long time coming, but i’m finally getting back into the groove of recording again … and to commemorate this return to the goodness of audio, ive added a new post to the it’s on random audio-blog .

so dont forget to keep your ears leaning in that direction, if yr into that sort of thing (and you should be, refer to the title of this post as for why)

on the purity of ginn’ntonixx

wichita cornstalks long walks on some beach arent our voices so hoarse throats coarse & we’re all trying so hard

: : :

i can take a bike helmet & my left hand striking stealth & satans last of kin inside this wretched wealth of nations you feel weakened by years & yearnings somehow im sorry and somewhere this is all okay okay?

like daring a drawbridge or busroutes yr the face of a forced fate thats known as a natural & nurtured nocturnal nativity scene dripping with the guilt of a thousand runned red lights can we skip class all week i’ll ask with weak kneed dreams & sunsoaked pb&jeans thinking to myself through empty too cold mornings my jetlagged shoulderblades, oops i meant yr snowstorm neckline winds therhyme &danced double time fancy murder raps into our windbreaker risktaker unfounded elevator glances at a passive past, youdig?

and who blew loose yr screwless zootsuit shoot it! & used food asa ruse for the newest and unknown communion and what was that abt bike racks again?

i’m a sunbleached disfigured and accurate hacked-up acura - this time - and we’re all not so differentor aged graceful fuck the being grateful i want to stand on mountain tops & burn the sun with the moon until that little fucker knows my name like his shallowand faked gravefame want to try a new game?

share me some tape and fix this papermache saint to yr frame.

I melt lard or, who just jump started my nervous system?

shackled, stranded at another disadvantage i .am. all thats valuedand newly useless/ misconstrued in this cross-dressing and diminuitive distance lets sing two themes strung ninja schemes through steamy scenes not quite bedroom teams .did i hear someone scream|yet?

pick me up in airline bathrooms im the shadow of mass transit(+)river crossings prediciting parks and partly parched&parked in comforting shaded grass lawns i dont care what happens just promise not one too many broken bottles & my skull just told welcome to iceland but they got it part wrong, &whereareyou.right.now?

MaraBlogging #1

this is probably going to be a recurring theme in the coming weeks, months, and (hopefully not) years. the setting is a Marathon Oil Corporation headquarters. the reason for my being here is work related. the rationalization for my being here is something along the lines of personal and private humiliation; oh and the girls are generally very pretty, too.

i am currently typing from a little corner of the world, known to many as Flag City USA, yes, thats right, its Findlay, Ohio. just off I-75, an hour or so south of Toledo, which pretty much means the middle of Ohio, which then also pretty much means the middle of nowhere, or maybe too threateningly close to the bible-belt, depending on the sort of language you prefer.

sure, i can’t argue that the downtown itself, a whopping two or three blocks, is very much adorable; in that way that all super christian, borderline-poor-but-dont- -seem-to-care sorts of areas always are. but that doesnt mean that im not totally bored here.

… because i am …

there is always a sick facination, though, with the idea of what it would really be like to have grown up here; where the main intersection is a meeting of Main St and, yeah get this, Main Cross St. and you can stay on this obligatory Main St. for quite a while (believe me), traveling past the quiant Dairy Queen, the occasional ‘rich’ area with very huge, very beautiful old homes in one direction and a number of local restaurants, like The Down Towner, and the University of Findlay in the other. but, truth be told, you always know in your heart that all it takes is one quick turn off this daring Main St. in either direction and you’ll plunge headfirst into the depths of rural Ohio. and fast, too. not 500 ft from almost any intersection, you find yourself surrounded by, well, nothing. i will say though, that in this part of the world, no sunset can ever go unnoticed. and none are worth missing

. . .

Of their own volition, or owing to an accident which has been chosen for them, they plunge lucidly and without complaining into a reproachful, ignominious element, like that into which love, if it is profound, hurls human beings. Erotic play discloses a nameless world which is revealed by the nocturnal language of lovers. Such language is not written down. It is whispered into the ear at night in a hoarse voice. At dawn it is forgotten.

Dear Stephanie,

these are little bits inspired by Dear Diary: Mostly True Stories, a zine-type thing written by Stephanie of Phantom Limb, Handmade Detroit, and a million other places. more notes at the end.
much love and many more apologies to Stephanie for cramping her style.

Dear Stephanie,

When you found the bracelet after looking for it after remembering it after forgetting it did you think for a brief moment about your own daughter in high school writing abt her mom’s charm bracelet?

just wondering,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

Once, a few years ago, while riding ’shotgun’ in my mom’s SUV she referred to Jennifer Lopez as “J-Lo”. I can’t remember exactly how that made me feel about my place in the world anyore, but I did laugh pretty hard.

it made me feel wierd,
Diary

p.s. Another time, even longer ago, my mom told me a story abt some young kid ‘giving her the finger’ that afternoon while she was out driving - except that she said ‘he fingered me.’

Dear Stephanie,

Back in middle school, Dan & I were riding our bikes on the sidewalk along Orchard Lake Road, where we grew up. We were probably going to CD Warehouse (which closed a few years later because Harmony House opened up a few miles away; and now the Harmony House has been torn down for a Best Buy) but on the way a silver, old-man car pulled out from somewhere and blocked the sidewalk and I ran right into the front passenger side door. Dan said my rear tire flew up real high and he thought I was going to flip over the old man’s silver, old-man car.

but I didn’t,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

We all saw you in the newspaper today and were so pleased to find that it had nothing to do with being trapped under anything for any number of days; also, we heard you scream but that was for joy.

at least thats what we hoped,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

One time my girlfriend was helping me clean up my basement after it had flooded real bad and I straightened up from having been leaning over to clean up some poop or something and I hit my head on the pointed bottom of a green, metal hanging lamp that I’ve owned for a long long time and my head hurt super bad.

Thats not the last time that the basement’s been flooded, nor the last time I hit my head on the lamp, nor the last time my head hurt super bad.

but I dont think shes my girlfriend anymore,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

At least now we’ve got business casual.

is that a fair trade?,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

I think the reason I dont believe in a loving god is because Innis is dead.

pretty angry abt that,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

thats pretty funny.

wish I’d'a been there,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

My dad always gets a big box of Whoppers for Father’s Day, Christmas, and his birthday. Usually my mom buys them, but I did once - or twice, maybe.

we like to call them Whompers,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

If there’s any insight I’ve gained from my current employment, its this:
its ok to pee anywhere as long as no one’s looking.

Instead, though, I chose, this time, to use a port-a-potty in the parking lot near where I do my laundry. I knew that was the right choice because when I opened the door to leave I saw a small cat off in the shadows by the laundromat.

He meowed to me for a while because I was meowing and making those clicking/kissing noises people are forced to make to cats because no one ever takes the time to teach them basic commands. I had bet that he was as hungry as I was thirsty, so I went inside to get us a snack, but when I came back outside he was gone. I guessed that I would have to have my Mountain Dew and strawberry Pop-Tarts alone.

I ate one Pop-Tart and left the other scattered in the shadows for him. I drank the Mountain Dew myself.

promise I didn’t litter,
Diary

Dear Stacy,

The benches in Memorial Park dont have any dividers so even normal-sized people can stretch out on them and look at the moon.

sigh,
Diary

Dear Stephanie,

Its late now and I just rode past 6 or 7 kids sitting in the darkened turn-around of some Pleasant Ridge neighborhood boulevard. When I got close enough, we all yelled out one-liners to each other, but we chose not to take turns, so the only one I heard was mine.

and it wasnt very funny,
Diary

Dear Everyone,

we miss you. please write back soon.

your friends,
The Diaries

detroit is cooler than new york


- wow, this is definitely going to take more than an hour.
- well then, i guess we’ll just have to keep feeding the meter.

and just like that, the DUCF began with the full force of an overactive gorilla driving some beat up pick-up truck across the barren wasteland of non-believers, or something.

the quote above was something i overheard while sitting poised at the .waitinglinetheory. sponsor table maybe only fifteen minutes after the doors opened to the first annual Detroit Urban Craft Fair at the Majestic Theater this past Saturday. Many folks, craftier and cleverer than i, will have posts, praises, pics and thanks-yous all over the internets these next few days speaking in surreal terms and appreciative phrases about how wonderful and successful the DUCF turned out to be. not that any of us were surprised that it would be great, but im pretty sure no one had expected it to be so so SO perfect in every way.

here’s another bit of eavesdropping:

i’m, like, overwhelmed. i think we have to go around once, and then come back through again.

lets not beat a dead horse here, but id like to reiterate the fact that all of us at .WLT. were so pleased all day long, and continue to be in awe of the many wonderful people attending, helping out, meeting new friends, etc that this was a day we dont plan to forget … even when the second annual DUCF totally fucking tops it next year :)

and so here is my attempt at giving a huge, gi-normous thank you to the wonderful women of Handmade Detroit who made it such a glorious day and are always able to put such warmness in our hearts just by doing what they love to do - ya’ll are the bestest of the best, and we hope you know it by now

(oh, and the title of this post was stolen from a collage piece by my new buddy, Creve … i hope he doesn’t mind)

. . .

and now for today’s appropriate stolen quote:

The revolution will not be apologized for.

to see aitch

careful, my quarellsome cautionary tale - im tailing you, you see, i am the sea.

this is nothing and we seem to be that night as this is a frightened little boy in greying hairs and pockmarked miscarriages -
i am the narrative.
 :you’re not the merry marraige for nothing nonstaring and moon rises
 :inside the serapHim.

lets be the worrisome worthless world (?)

lets be the best beauty this barren baronness has evr set free
and we, then, shall be the need.

and you, my dear man, shall be the seed

bloggers are a (nerdy) force to be reckoned with


i’ve been sitting on this story for a few weeks now, and i keep putting off mentioning it because i dont really have much to add to it other than i think this is hilarious.   hilarious and genius.

and very, very cool.

over at Threadless, there is a new t-shirt design to incorporate the all powerful blogger’s ego in one aggressively simple design. that’s right, bloggers now have their own gang-hand-sign.

honestly i think we all need to get one of these and wander town picking fights with other computer nerds who happen to not be wearing their blogger shirts.


now that i think of it though, i do like the fact that the right hand also incorporates another hand, um, gesture as well as the “blog” sign …

can you see that in there? i certainly think its appropriate for bloggers.

. . .

oh, and now for today’s appropriate stolen quote:

you are, we are seeds
seeking to walk unobstructed and redeem
scrape along the bottom
mimicking the alchemy of dreams

 

disutility function