disutility function

i must be setting myself up for some kind of cruel karma rugburn ready to bury myself in everything i never forgave me for the thing to remember is that not believing in god’s infinite wrath means youve just got to do it yrself & theres no need for poetics or primitive grammatic maneuvering the only worthwhile metaphor is in regards to the way we last stood at the base of a few steps leading up to nowhere particularly relevant but i was not facing up the steps in fact quite the opposite maybe thats important & maybe thats making too much of things like setting or detail in set design & instant gratification through all the interruptions & meaningless conversations as always im left trying desperately failing to pull myself from yr eyes

-> the scribbling

this is probably a year or so old, im honestly not sure … i found the scribbling laying around the house the other day after thinking i had lost it

what i will admit to is that somewhere in this piece is what i think may be my most favorite line ive ever written, and one that basically sums up nearly my entire belief system as concisely as i could ever hope to explain myself … for what its worth.