disutility function

just talking out loud for a moment, i guess … bare with me, if you will

Allison Glenn is curating a gallery show this March 31st and has pretty much ordered me to have some work up, and i’m hitting a bit of a wall when it comes to deciding what to choose to show.

i think part of my problem is that i dont know all of the details of the show and im so super picky abt how my work ends up being displayed that im a little hesitant to make any real choice yet.

for one, i dont know things like how many pieces ill be able to display and i think i’d just like to be given a limit. so maybe i should go and limit myself, lets say no more than … four? is that abt right? i guess it also depends on how much room i have to use … and since i like to use large prints, maybe four is too many –
see what im saying? its hard.

and i dont even know where the show is located so i cant use the mood of the space to help me choose things that work in it, or specifically dont work and maybe choose them for that same reason
Updated: i just heard from Allison that the show will be at the Bankle Building, which is on Woodward north of the Fox and State theaters, etc etc … nice, i haven’t been there before.

the theme for the show is The Human Condition and in Allison’s style she’s chosen a theme that really doesnt help in any way to limit the art, because, and come on, we all know that a theme like that can be bent to fit anything … its all based on what title you choose for each piece, etc etc … maybe i’ll just use that as the title for each and every piece i choose. how would that work as a technique to piss off the audience… not a bad idea. we’ll see…

and then i have the internal debate of which style of photos to use … should i use the old warm photos that i love or go all out and use some super minimal photos, even though im not comfortable/confident enough with them yet??

i guess in the end, ill just choose a couple of each bc i can never make a good decision, although i know full well that doing so will probably make it so that its impossible to feel a specific mood from them all as a whole, and being the control freak i am, im not sure i like that either…. i totally rule.

i think the hardest part for me when it comes to my photography is that i really would like it to be appreciated, but im not yet able to take the huge chances with it that i would like to, or would be able to do if i was more comfortable with it like i am with, say, my audio crap. and all of that is pretty funny to me, bc well, i have had plenty of reasons to feel confident with what i do.

so yeah….. i suspect itll be two old ones thatll be my mood setters and then a couple minimal ones to show that i can also be an asshole - and you art jerks better not fuck with me, so there.

(this post is seriously not an invitation for my mother to pat me on the head and tell me im the cutest boy in my grade, so please mom, i love you but don’t do it)

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and now for tonight’s appropriate stolen quote:

and maybe i don’t have a choice
and maybe thats all i have
and maybe this is a cry for help.