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Corey Hovanec
toro no. 2


you came home with salt
every day in long december
and wouldn't navigate
you criticized my claws
while your own were drawn
for cutting

in your own words
as a process
you drew light from outside
even as you swore at my darkness
god you are a bull

always this past will lie past
even now gone
in the eyes, both blue
i saw you the human
whom i'd never seen
in you

narrow pangs flow and leave
in these done days of our bloom
you should have spared us both your flight
and faced the fear you left me alone to bear
return to the room
60 dollars
and pet names on paper
how beat

even as i dare myself these words
to direct them where
she said you made me a monster
but if you tally every page
we both seem so jagged
rough edges here are of the whole

wade out into the dream now plugged
every inch of our water a flood
i know it easier to favor the dam
but the still water level never the plan
you held the fever by a string
and i came soaked and crawling

your velocity is exacting
i only asked little favors
and on the cusp you obliged
if i'm the phoenix
don't pat yourself on the back

every word here an elegy
for the vision that faded long before its fashion
for the respiration of the duty that you demanded then damned
as easy as menstruation came
you marked one chivalrous
and denied anothers depth
you laid down as mine what you had counted as ours

bye to the bull for now
no toro on my tongue
what once was won
now the air only scatters against your run
although the end was folly played unright
i'll see you soon in a different light

cry long for cass
they said and i believe
you're hewn with hope
the distance that forced me out of sleep
your shadows are not tatters i could ever keep
i have moments you see
where the mantra is upwards





 



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